Ouch

I think the worst thing about cancer is the pain, which has a snowball effect: discomfort, pain pills, drowsiness, side effects. The long term effect is my change of personality and not being able to convey the person inside. I don't have capabilities to serve the way I want to, I can't talk or laugh like I used to, I don't  even have energy to sit here and talk. Most of all, I feel most upset about not being able to mother and teach the way I want to. I need a change to happen swiftly, in one direction or another. I know that an extension of life or a passing that will reunite me with God and loved ones are both blessings. I just need a change soon.

Many people fight such battles much longer than me, but 2 1/2 years feels endless to me. My heart reaches out to all those who join us in praying for a swift change. Also, to the Activity Day girls who heart attacked our front door and left bouquets of love notes, I thank you. My gratitude goes out to the large number of meals brought in to our home; I can't tell you what a physical and financial blessing that is! Also included in my ever-growing list of angels are those individuals who make my vitamin c infusions happen: Nurse Beth, Dr. Hassid, and several drivers who rearrange their schedules to fit me in. I love you all!

Junior High Reunion

To all you ladies who made the flight/drive out for a girls' weekend, THANK YOU! It was just like old times...with the exclusion of myself, everyone is as beautiful and charismatic as ever!  We spent several hours catching up at my place, then visited Chakra's Spa for massages, facials, and pedicures. The night completed with long-awaited for dinner at BJ's. I felt so loved. Just wish I wasn't fighting fatigue and pain the whole time. If I seemed to be more of a bystander than participant, I hope you understand the reasoning. Love you girls!